BLACKENED This morning the sunlight was faint / dense fog risen from the earth / This morning the light of my soul was faint / dark feelings risen from my heart / this morning I felt that the daylight was waning / this morning I felt that my lust for life was fading / Lost in thousand thoughts of darkness / my soul wanders through this blackened dawn / Give me life / give me hope / give me joy / Too heavy is this burden / to bear alone / HERE I GO! / And so did the morning rise after all / through all sorrow / through all the darkness / And so did the morning rise after all... / "Time after time you lift me up and time after time I fall again" / You are the light of my day / You saved my soul once again / You are my home in times of grief / Where else could I ever go?

WITHERING LEAVES Withering leaves, withering trees / tell me that autumn is here / Withering joy, withering life / tell me that death is here / Colors changing from gray to black to gray again / emotions changing along them / Little candles lit there and there / extinguished by the neverending rain / Remembrance... / Candles burnt out / I travel to live those moments again / I travel, just to find the smoking ruins / In the midst of falling rain / when no bird sang / in my depression I kneeled down and prayed / For human shall never be immortal / I set my eyes to the sky above / Hoping to see even a reflection of the light divine / Eternal sorrow and despair on my mind / forgotten sunrises of yesterdays... / Eternally caught in my cursed mind / soul wounded looking for life... / It has been months since the last time I cried / Dressing my sorrow in black, hiding my tears... / Amid of all sorrow and rain / just one phrase came unto my lips / After gray had changed to black again / the same phrase still haunted me / "Hallowed be Thy name" / What else can I say? / For that is the only thing / that keeps a depressed heart alive / Oh, lift the stone heart from my chest / Save me, spare me, please!

STARLIT THOUGHTS Tonight I sit alone / and gaze into the dark sky / thinking of all the wasted years / Tonight I sit alone, and think / this so called life is not leading me anywhere / Tonight our paths separate / I'd like to say goodbye / but it is too late to cry / You go that way, me this way / In your darkness I cannot stay / Tonight our paths separate / I'd like to say goodbye / but it is too late to cry / My friend, you go that way, me this way / for I want to live for the light / I pray, there is just emptiness / at the end of your way / just like you said / You did not believe in eternal pain / neither did I but tonight I can only pray / Now, my friend, we have come to a point / I've made my decision, and I hope you will too / Prodigal son, beloved son / hear your father cry / Look into the face of the old man / look at his eyes.../ He's still sitting beside the window / waiting for your return / Run, run, for soon it is eve / and the gates are closing / Run, run, run, run / the gates are closing / Run, run, run, run / the sun is setting / Run, run, run, run / the gates are closing / Run, run, run, run / your light is waning / Run, run, oh prodigal son / Will you not come home?

TEMPORARY The cemetery filled with withered flowers / the cemetery filled with leaves / people once so proud / people once so blame... / a pile of bones, the ruins of a soul / The fiery chariots riding through the sky / far above these mortal fields / gloom of the night / is lifted by the light / the fire, the glow from the sky above / Eternal life, eternal death / so does earthly pride vanish / lost in sphere of thick and cold darkness / reaching for light / reaching for freedom / You are my life / You are my salvation / You are in my dreams / You are my dream / Would you hear me now / would you understand? / Give me words of live / give me joy / the nightsky is lit by a heavenly light / upon this sacred soil / To sorrow of death a grace will be brought / upon this soil of death / Eyes blazing open wide / heading for the night / You are the fire in my heart / thus I am ready to go! / In the midst of night I cried and cried / sorrow and pain running down my cheek / You gave me hope / You gave me new light / You are my all / forever I shall exalt thy name.......!

DREAM OF ETERNITY The last shadows are fading away / On this last day I feel no pain / I saw the river of life / sparkling like crystal / and the tree of eternity / and its green leaves / No more pain / no suffering / oh, never anymore / just an endless joy / in eternal light / Too many years / too many tears / on the way there is / Too many tears / all too many tears / until I get there / The minutes passing by / I hear people cry / How long it will take? / "One night I had a dream I was walking through a forest. I came to a lake and in its surface I saw faces from my past passing by. Dear friends I saw and I saw my old enemies. All of them had a place in my life and all of them had their story to tell." / A little later I stood beside a throne / watching those people come and go / Some of them were singing / while the others were crying / Some of them went upwards / some went downwards / Cold waves shivered my spine / as I realized where I was / "Some time passed by and one night again I dreamed I was walking through that same forest again. This time the forest was filled with supernatural light. All was quiet and all was still and then I came to a lake." / In its surface / I saw a new kingdom / I saw my destination / I saw the river of life / sparkling like crystal / I saw the Eternal One / Oh, won't you take me home

VOITON PÄIVÄ Ja niin koitti päivä, jota me odotimme / odotimme niin kauan kyynelin ja kirouksin / Sinä päivänä kansa nousi kansaa vastaan / hävitys ja suru levitettiin ylle tämän maan / Nyt kun me katselemme tuhoa ja turmelusta / joka tullut osaksemme on, osaksi tämän maailman / Suru mielen täyttää, kyynelvirta vuolas / itkut kaduilla kaikuu ja huudot lasten tapetuin / Tänä päivänä vihan malja täytyy / tänä päivänä vihan malja ylitse vuotaa / Ja niin aikamme loppuun käy / enää ei valheet auta / Tullut täyteen on päiviemme määrä / turhaan kaikuu itkut yössä / Jo kaikuu laulu enkelten / hukkuu huuto kärsivien / Kutsu kävi / vastasitko sinä siihen? / Jo kaikuu laulu enkelten / hukkuu huuto kadotetuin / Kaikuu riemu ikuinen / kaukana yllä helvetin / Koittaa aamu uusi / ikuinen valkeus / taakse jäänyt on maailman valitus / Koittaa aamu uusi / ikuinen valkeus / kun kansa viimein perille päässyt on

EXILED Lying dying, calm and still... / light fading from those eyes... / Last words of a dying man... / they're telling you to run! / Everything that was before is now gone / he's telling you to hide / Run, run, run / away from this land of death / Run, run, run / away from this land of ever-frost / Sun brightens the darkness of the night / at every dawn the dusk retreats / but who will brighten the darkness of these souls / heal these blackened hearts torn apart? / The eyes of a dying man you still see in your dreams / still in your mind is your quest for remembrance / Years have passed in exile / aged and hardened you return to your home / These fields, these hills, these forests / of your homeland / These places full of memories, the places of your dreams / These burned homes and empty gazes in their eyes... / When will you see your children smiling? / Will the scars ever disappear?

SONG OF AUTUMN How should I know about the truth / how should I know about good and evil? / I just witness what I see / and I confess the evil within / Little I know about demons / and even less about angels / but I see what bears fruit in me / and which thoughts I want to feed / My faith is like a dying tree / looks still strong but rots within / I need a new direction, a new life to live / and roots that grow deep / There is still so much to see / so much life for me to live / but is this despair my cross to bear? / In these silent moments of suffering... / Leaves make these cliffs slippery / Beneath, I see the sea furious... / These trees grew on a solid stone / oh, they grew without roots / At the edge / one step from the edge... / Who would watch my step / who would take my hand? / Dark clouds of a rising storm appear / wind blows, trying to make me fall / These rotten trees no longer offer me protection / I try to flee / My life is like these dying trees / I look still strong but so fragile I'm within / No longer can I stand on my own / no longer can I pretend to live / Far away in the distance / rays of sun hit the waves / Until the storm is over / I need You to hold me / lost again in these thoughts... / Show me the path to go / and I'll go wherever the path takes me / wherever it leads me / Oh lead me through the dark! / Guide me, lead me through the dark!

SHADOWY GARDEN Once again I walked these streets / they led me to a forlorn place / I decided to open the gates / and step into this shadowy place / Not a long time ago / I used to sit here from hour to hour / from day to day / from month to month / All the beauty I saw around / was in these dying plants and dried soil / Still those trees and flowers grew for me / but they withered before they bloomed / Now I'm sitting in these shadows again / remembering things I've seen and felt / Remembering things I hoped I had forgotten / Too much darkness / too much pain for one garden to take! / Back on my feet I leave this place / It's too much for my heart to face / I close the gate and walk away / but when will I have to come back again? / Shadowy garden, I thought I left you for good / but here I am again, standing at your gates / Shadowy garden, I tried to forget you / but time after time I stumble across you! / Shadowy garden, forever you'll be there / but know that now I have also other gardens to stay / Perhaps one day / when I have the strength / I'll take one withered flower / away from your poisoned ground / I'll move it to some other garden / and plant it into good soil / and one day / I'll watch the dead come alive / Shadowy garden, it has come time for me to move on.